I remember how my hand felt in his, and how his velvet robe brushed my heavenly skin. He looked down upon me and said the words, “There is no fear here”. The most peace I have ever felt stood in that moment. My earthly 8 year old self, hadn’t a clue who this being was, but my soul yearned to be there holding his hand. It wasn’t until years later, on earth I would learn his name: Jesus.
The field he guided me through was in vibrant colors I had never seen with my human eyes. Everything sang to him, the grass, the butterflies, the wind. It was all one, all universal, all accepting, and all loving. There was no hierarchy of beings- not of race, not of sex, not of wealth, not of religion, not of culture, not of soul. There was no space for -if you did x, y, z, -that he would love you any more than he already did, or loved the soul next to you more because they had lived a “more Christian life”. When you are in heaven, the playing field is even, and the love in abundant and sound. You are connected to everything in love.
This is exactly how I try to intentionally live my life- in abundant love. If I am going to come back to this earth, then I am going to do it right. Next time, when I get back to his hand, I am never letting go. So, living with abundant love it is, but the difference being, on earth there IS fear, and not everyone is so heavenly.
I have spent much of my life in search of heaven glimpses. Many would think this can be found in church mainly, but actually, I have seen the opposite in spaces overly marked in his honor. The holiest places I always seem to find, are the hidden gems among us. I would prefer to find him in people, places, and things that I encounter on a regular basis, that most wouldn’t seek. Like today in a bagel shop in Florida, I stood behind a very vibrant, energetic woman named Dawn. Her soul was amazing and bright. I thought to tell her this, but my human self tripped over how odd it would be to come from a stranger standing behind her in line. As my husband and I left, we turned to each other and said “wow her energy was amazing”. He had felt it too!
The best part is, this wasn’t even the only time I had a heaven glimpse today. In fact, I had my favorite one, that I literally long to do on earth, all the time. I floated in the ocean. Seems simple enough right? My daughter calls me the “master floater” because I can do it for hours on end and it weird poses. Its like yoga in the ocean! There is nothing that makes me feel more grounded, or deliever such high vibrations, than being part of its vastness. I literally feel one with the earth, which so happens to be the exact feeling I had with heaven. If you want to know what my all time favorite thing to do on this planet is- its that!
Just like that, on a simple Sunday that I never got to church, I was reminded of the hand I held in heaven, and his promises. In this simple Sunday, I saw in a soul the vibrancy that is avid in heaven, while standing in line for a bagel. I also felt the oneness in an ocean that literally binds the earth together as one.
Yesterday my heaven glimpse came to me through nature. This one comes to me often. It happens to be through cardinals. When I am about to encounter major changes, or someone close to me is pregnant, I am known to see real life cardinals in nature in an abundant amount. The day I gave my life to Christ, I had dozens and dozens in the trees in my backyard. Sometimes they literally fly into my windshield, other days they jump from bushes to bushes the entire way I am driving to work. Yesterday, I saw ten in about a five-mile stretch of road, literally sitting in the road every half mile or so. Each time we drove up to it, the bird would fly in front of the windshield. Over, and over, and over, again, they flew up. It happened so often, I asked my brother in-law to confirm I wasn’t seeing things. On my way to the airport, I was simply reminded that God is with me, that even nature sings to him, and that change is coming.
Church may be a great place for praise and worship, but when seeking for the gems of Jesus, don’t forget to look amongst your daily life. It is literally a heavenly hide and seek or I-Spy, he has developed just for you. Don’t forget to seek him and seek up! He is seeking a deeply personal relationship that begins with you grasping his hand.
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