Normally I use moment alone doing things us Moms never get to do. Like grocery shop alone, or go sit in Starbucks drinking a coffee while reading US Weekly. However, this day, this time, I did something different.
It was a beautiful day. Very New England Fall. The colors of the trees were bright,the weather cool enough for a light jacket. I decided I wanted to be part of the day and take a walk. That I needed to seize that day, and swallow it up.
I walked a very long walk. I listened to inspiring music. I sat on benches and took in sunshine. I smiled at small toddling babies learning how to walk and trying to stay up. All while doing what I never seem to have time to do at this time of day… Pray.
I feel it in my core that I am about to climb a spiritual mountain. That soon it will all make sense to me. That my “what is my life’s purpose?”–is about to be revealed.
Sharing my near-death experience to the world is a re-birth. I no longer feel alone in it. I have had many many people reach out to me in the past few days offering a great deal of support. People it is clear God intended me to meet or reconnect with. I am seeing this world through brand new eyes. Eyes that speak my truth, and 100% me.
I can’t stop crying.
I have been crying at everything and anything. It is a lot to process, a lot to take in. I am not crying in sadness but in gratitude.
I got to tell my truth.
I am not alone in it.
I am excited for what is to come. While praying and walking, and taking time to take in the light, I could not stop thanking God.
Thanks be to God.
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