The deepest part of my soul is making me sick to my stomach right now. What an enormous day for everything I stand for! It is about to be trumped in a few weeks with the “actual day”.
Today I received a message on Facebook that a friend saw my commercial. Huh? Yes even I was surprised. Since, I have watched in about 7,986 times. Not for vanity reasons (because heck the tv DOES add 10 lbs which is especially sad when you have about 30 you already have to lose), but simply for the surreal feeling that this is actually happening.
I actually admitted to the world my deepest “LIGHTEST” secret. That I have died, went to Heaven, and came back.
There I was on a well-known network. The BIO channel only tells the truth. And I was now part of their fact.
I also saw the web exclusive and nearly passed out. Oddly enough my biggest worry wasn’t how I looked on camera (because quite frankly I could have used some more make-up, better hair, and a month of Jillian Michaels!) but the way people who know me would react to my story.
It is so very difficult to put your truth out there. It is completely gut wrenching to share something so special, spiritual, and all of my being with the world. There will be many nay sayers, and people close to me that will think it is false. However, I know my truth, God knows my truth, what else needs to be proven?
I am still human. I still worry. Will my neighbors be whispering when they walk by my house? Will the parents at my kid’s school think I read tarot cards and crystal balls? And the list goes on.
Part of sharing your inner most you is being most vulnerable to others. Most people don’t share their inner most being with the world. It is nerve-racking.
So here I am. Trying to keep my national tv ego in check, while wondering where I am going to go from here.
It is a story I lived all my life to tell.
I am not sure where this tv ride will take me, but I know one thing is for sure: my truth has set me free.
I was granted this gift by the One & Only.
Seeking up seeks answers.
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